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Changing needs

So lately my kinky needs and preferences changed a bit. They shifted. I have been craving the submissive side more and more. My dominant side is still interesting but only when I do actually feel like it. And at the moment that’s not a whole lot. My sadistic side still is more present compared to other dominant things.

My submissive side has been wanting to come out and play, more and more. Being a switch at heart allowed me to explore a lot of things already, mostly on the dominant side though. Which is great but my submissive side was hiding during that. Always in the back of my mind, dreaming of things that I want some day. And now that side is emerging. That voice inside my head, picturing things that I’ve been wanting to do for ages. It has been growing stronger, my bounces stronger as well. My dominant side is still present but not as dominant (pun intended) anymore.

I love to explore at heart, and I will keep exploring.
And with that exploring, I have a few things that are on my (kinky) to do list.

Explore more of my submissive/slutty side.

Have a threesome MFM

Have a moresome

Have sex with a celebrity (just for fun, because who wouldn’t want to?)

Get a full body paint

No I am not gonna make it a year to do list, I do like to explore at my own pace. Sure, I’m greedy and want it all but I’m patient too. And I am very happy already for all the things I got to explore with different people. And yes I have a hell of a lot more on my wishlist but I do like to keep it short. And yes I am going to try and do more posts, I do miss you all and will definitely be here more!

 

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My dirty fantasy

Note: This is my my most dirty fantasy, keep in mind it’s a fantasy and and anything without consent is illegal.

Walking through a dark alley, deep in the night. Just the sound of distant music and cars.
Suddenly I hear a sound behind me. I turn around…nothing.
I start walking again, a little faster this time.

Again a sound behind me, this time closer. I turn around again and this time there is a man behind me. Grabbing me. Putting his hand over my mouth. I slowly realize what is going on and before I know it, I am thrown in a van, gagged and restrained.
Nervously I try to get loose, wondering what will happen to me. The man in the back is wearing a mask and he puts a bag over my head as I try to take in his physique.
Soon the van stops and I get pulled out of the van and two men drag me inside a building.
They stop and push me over something that feels like a table. I feel my ankles getting tied to the table. A sharp object traces over my body and suddenly tears open my pants.
I struggle and try to yell as I feel my pants being cut away from my body, exposing me more and more. Next my panties go, I struggle more.

I feel that somebody is tying me up tighter, making sure I can’t get loose. My hands bound together in front of me, I feel knife on my skin. Cutting my shirt away. Exposing my naked skin.
I shiver as I feel a hand going over my body, tracing the curve of my ass. Spanking it suddenly. A sharp sting, the sensation barely over before another hits my other cheek.
I hear people around me, breathing, watching.
Suddenly the bag is pulled off my head and I blink at the sudden light. As my vision adjusts to the light, I notice people around me. I notice all men around me. Naked and with masks on to hide their faces. Circled around me with their cocks awakening.

I feel something cold against my pussy, it starts vibrating. I gasp for air as I feel the vibrations going through my body. I can’t control myself anymore. Feeling my pussy getting wetter and wetter. Another slap on my cheeks. The weird sensation of pleasure mixed with pain and concern. I try to struggle but I am tied up tightly. I try to scream but the sound is muffled by the gag. I feel myself dripping wet now and a hand goes over my pussy. Spreading my wetness, a finger in my pussy. At this point I realize that it is hopeless to struggle, and that this is going to happen. I feel the vibrator go away and hear somebody stepping behind me.

A hard cock against my pussy, suddenly thrusting in hard. I yelp as the man starts fucking me roughly. Another man stands before me holding something in his hands.
‘Don’t make a sound bitch’ he says while he removes my gag and keeps my mouth open with his hand. I feel cold metal in my mouth and realize he is putting a spider gag in my mouth.
Before I know it he secured the spider gag and I am stuck with my mouth open.
A sudden spank on my ass makes me yelp again and to counter that the man puts his hard cock in my mouth. He grabs a hold of my hair and starts fucking my mouth.
Now I am fucked on both sides while laying helplessly on the table. I gag on his big cock but with the spider gag I can’t close my mouth.
Being fucked from both sides I can’t help to let out a repressed moan.

The guy behind me is slipping out of me after some hard fucking and I feel his warm sperm dripping on my ass and back. I hear him stepping away and the guy that has been fucking my mouth slips out and steps behind me. His big cock slips in smoothly, filling me up all the way. His hands on my cheeks. The men around me are getting closer. One filling up my open mouth again.

Behind me spanking my cheeks, hard. One man after the other, using me. Abusing me.
Spanking me. Covering me with their sperm.
My pussy hurting from all the cocks, suddenly the man fucking me, slips out of me and I feel a cold liquid on my ass.
Knowing what will come I struggle, but I feel the tip of his cock pressing against my asshole. Suddenly with a hard push he goes in and I scream as my mouth is fucked.
He starts fucking my ass and I can feel it getting wider. While being fucked on two sides I feel somebody untying my legs and attaching a rope to my restrained wrists.

The cocks pull out and I feel the rope being pulled up, the table moved and two men touching me. One picks me up and the rope gets pulled up more and more.
The man in front of me enters me and starts fucking me. The other man fingers my other hole. Then pushing in his cock. Being taken on two sides.
Hard. Being fucked senseless by two guys, and after that more, and more.
When it stops, I’m being released on the floor.
One guy coming closer, taking off his mask.
I look at him and say: “I hoped it was you.”

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A new year

First of all, a Happy New Year! And I hope you’ll make it just as naughty as I intend to!
I hope you naughty lot keep enjoying my blog just as much as I do and keep up the perving!

A new year has arrived and along with that is of course a list of things I want to do the next year. But there is also a little reflection of the year that has past. It has been a fun but very busy year and I found out a lot about myself.
First of all the biggest thing that I found out is that I have ADD (Attention deficit disorder), for those less informed, it’s the little sister of ADHD but without the hyper part. Just the easily distracted part among other stuff. A lot of stuff fell into place when I found out and yes this also is a factor when it comes to sex.

When it comes to sex it’s hard to block out other stuff, not to mention focus my mind on what is going on.
The trouble with ADD is that you can’t see it or notice it straight away and if you don’t have it, it’s hard to understand.
Some great books help with that and help with describing what goes on within an ADD mind. With me it’s my mind going everywhere within seconds and forgetting what the previous thought was in less then that.

Anyway back to the sex part. Sex can be tricky because of that, I’m easily bored and it takes a lot to excite me and keep me interested. (not to mention the distraction my brain gives and letting me think of other stuff during sex) If you ever find yourself in bed with an ADD person, good luck! We are a lot of fun but we need a lot of input (me at least).

Dirty talk? Yes please. Music in the background? Only instrumental. Hands everywhere? Yes please! Moaning? The more the better! More people? Yes please!

So you lot can imagine the extra difficulty with sex there then. But it’s not all bad, I get excited really quickly and always horny around new people!
Anyway, I’ve got a lot of things I want to try (or do again)  so I decided to make a little list….
This list is part of the bigger list I have over here, to do 101 things in 1001 days. But of course I want to do the sexy stuff all!

  • To have…, yes no surprise that I want some girl on girl time and it’s the first thing on my list!
  • To have a threesome, moresome and an orgy are also in it, so get organizing? 😉
  • To have an awesome Domme outfit and find a sub to test it all out on….
  • Pole dancing and lap dancing should be on it as well of course!
  • Just like doing burlesque *shimmies and shakes*
  • Kissing a lot of different people is on it as well, so beware of unexpected kissing 😉
  • Going to Eroticon 2013, but being broke I might have to pout and see if I can help a company out by being my sexy self. Don’t feel shy about contacting me then! Oh yeah and *pout* I’m really friendly and hard working so pretty please? *wink wink*
  • To have sex with a celebrity! Again if you are one, I promise I won’t tell who you are if you have sex with me! Unless you’re James Deen of course, then I’d totally dedicate a blog to it! Also I’m a lot of naughty fun in bed 😉 *does pouting face* Please?
  • Also a big fun one on my list is learning how to squirt! I’ve felt the well known sensations before so I’m sure it’s there just hasn’t been stimulated enough!

To see the other fun stuff, have a look at the list and who knows, you might be on my to do list!

To all, the best of wishes for the new year and keep on being naughty!

The stranger

His eyes, that is what caught my eye at first. When he turned his head and looked at me, a grin appeared. I couldn’t quite put my finger on it, but he had something about him.
I walked past him and walked up to the bar to order a drink. While I was waiting for my drink I saw some movement in the corner of my eye. I turned my head and he stood next to me.

“Hi” he simply said.
“Hello” I answered while I looked him in the eyes.
“What is a gorgeous lady like you doing here alone?”
“Who says I am alone?” I replied looking how he would react.
“I did” he said playfully while I got my drink handed by the bartender “You still didn’t answer the question though”
“That is true, but not all questions need an answer” I said while I slowly sipped my drink, looking at him “And what are you doing here?”

I saw in his eyes that he was thinking about what to answer carefully. I took another sip from my drink and carefully leaned in to the bar.
“I’m just looking for a little fun”
“Just a little?” I boldly asked him while I took another sip and carefully let my eyes glide over his body. He was dressed with care but still casual. He was wearing black pants, that were nice and tight on his ass. He was also wearing a nice shirt and over that a sexy black jacket. I could see that the question sparked his imagination and a small grin appeared.
“Well usually it starts with just a little, and it turns out to be more fun”
“And what kind of fun would that be?”

His grin got a little wider, he leaned in and whispered: “Any kind of fun you would like. Anything.”
Thinking of the possibilities, I felt my heartbeat go up. My mind was barely thinking about the possibilities and I felt myself getting wetter already. There was something about him that made me horny, very very horny. My curiosity got even bigger then that it already was.
I decided to pluck up the courage and whispered: “And why would I be interested in any kind of fun with you?
“Because you want to” he whispered and he moved back a little to look into my eyes.
His eyes were piercing right through me and this time I leaned in “And what do you have to offer?”
His grin got a little wider when I said that and he whispered: “Well there is only one way you can find out, just follow me.”

As he said that he turned around and walked towards the stairs leading down to the toilets.  For a split second I thought about it and when he went around the corner I decided to follow him. With every step I took, I felt my heart racing and my anticipation growing. Wondering what he had in mind, what he would do, made me crazy thinking about it. I found myself stepping down the steps a little quicker while all that raced through my mind. I found myself looking for him when I reached the bottom of the stairs. I took a few steps while I was looking around and suddenly I felt a hand that grabbed me and pulled me into the gents.

He had a strong grip on me and pressed me against the wall inside. I could feel his breath in my neck as I felt his hand going over my back. Slowly making his way down, over my butt, going towards the edge of my skirt. He stroked my thigh and slowly moved up again, pulling my skirt up.

You’ll find out more about what happens in part two 😉

TMI Tuesday: Fantasy?

1. Do you think that acting out a fantasy can sometimes cause damage to a relationship?

In my opinion, it can only get better! As long as you still have something to fantasize about because if you did it all, what would there be left?

2. Some couples role play their fantasies rather than introducing another person into the relationship to live out their fantasies. Do you think that this is an acceptable substitute?

Did you read this blog? Yeah? No? Well let me tell you that I find either fun.
Role play? Hell yeah! Another person? Yes please!

3. Is there a particular movie or TV series or character from a movie or TV series that you fantasize about?

Oooh wel I have quite a few, one of my favorites is this guy though:

Matthew Gray Gubler

As you might have thought, I have a total soft spot for geeks and nerds!
And among those is Matthew Gray Gubler, if you don’t know him, you should, he’s awesome!

4. Apart from the obvious things like child abuse, are there some things that are ‘off limits’ for a fantasy e.g. incest fantasies, age play, rape fantasies. Why/ why not?

Well I’d say with fantasies the sky is the limit, but of course things that aren’t legal and socially unacceptable like child molesting is certainly out of the picture for me.
But age play, rape fantasies, as long as they are fantasies…. or with consent 😉

5. What is the most taboo thing you have ever fantasized about doing?

*thinks* Mmmm this is an interesting one, I most certainly have to say kidnapping and rape are at the top there. But of course with consent, not actual kidnapping or rape. Wouldn’t want you lot to get the wrong ideas of course 😉
But the real question is of course then, who would be the kidnapper and who would be kidnapped? I will let you guys think about that one on your own!

6. Tell us about a fantasy that you have that you don’t ever see yourself actually acting out. Why do you think you will never act it out?

*points to the answer above* Ooh I’m a shy person, did I mention that. And less kinky then people seem to think! I’m pretty boring actually, no really! *looks very innocent*

7. Have you ever pretended the person you were having sex with was someone else without telling them?

Trust me I tried, having an ADD brain doesn’t make that one easy though! Concentrating is already hard as it is!

8. Have you ever tried to make a fantasy a reality only to have it fail miserably? What happened?

Not that I can think off, I’ll just mention laughing attacks while having sex instead.
Total mood killer, especially if you can’t stop laughing!

Bonus: Tell us about your most cherished fantasy. Did you ever live it out? Please give us all the juicy details because that is the kind of people we are.

Oh this is an interesting one..
Well I did share some fantasies before here like The desk and What if?I’ve got a dirty mind, and a lot of fantasies…..maybe you’re in it next?

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What if….

What if I didn’t hold back and I kept dating you? What if I wasn’t afraid of hurting you and just continued to have a good time with you? Will you ever know that you still keep crossing my mind, wondering what could have been…..

Your body pressed against me, feeling every slight movement. Kissing each other passionately while our hands wander. Mine explore your back while yours enjoy my ass. Slowly your hand under my skirt while you press me against the door that we just entered.
‘Didn’t you want to show me the house first?’ I said while I wrapped my arms around your neck.
‘If you want to, of course’ he said as he suddenly picked me up, grabbing my ass.

He started to walk carefully and we walked into the living room.
I took a quick peek and teasingly said ‘Mmm that couch looks comfy’
‘Of course it is, I’ll show you’ he said as he walked over to the couch, bend over while holding me and pressed me against it. His lips slowly made their way to my neck.. soft and gentle and suddenly a playful bite that made a shiver go through my body.
Smiling as my hands got a hold of his shirt.

Slowly pulling it upwards and showing more and more skin. He undid my blouse and as he took care of my bra, he kissed my neck.
I decided to take control and rolled over, sitting on his lap. I grabbed his belt and undid it along with his pants. I started kissing his chest and worked my way down while taking his pants. After I stripped him, I straddled him and pressed myself against his erection.
He cupped my breasts and started stroking my body. I would stop him and grab him by the wrists as I would tease him. Just enough to drive him crazy. Grinding my wet pussy over his hard cock. So close and yet so far away. I would softly kiss his neck and make just that he wanted me even more.

Until he would go crazy, free himself and would take me.
Hard.
And I would love every second and every push deep into me of it.

That would I imagine could have happened and till this day I still keep wondering how it would have been. How it could have been.

And if I would get the chance…..mmm yummy *dreams on*