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Being out

It’s one of those things that is always lurking around the corner and sooner or later will happen.

Being out.

Out of the kink closet and possibly out of the sex blogger one too.

Bit scary, but seems I can react swiftly and calmly to it.

The scary part being, why did he say it to me? Of course it’s appreciated that he did so I know he’s aware.

‘Hey I don’t wanna gossip or anything but I found your okcupid profile.’

That’s all it took.

I don’t remember exactly what I said but I mumbled something about it being okay and our open relationship.

The awkward moment passed pretty quickly because there were other people around. I think it was more awkward for him since his head was red. I like to think that I’d responded very calmly. Sure, in my head I went oh shit for a second, but I’m pretty open in general about things so it doesn’t bother me.

What I am wondering of course it’s how much he read and how much he found. Did he make the link to my blog? Did he go through all my question answers?

And of course, why did he say something? Fellow kinkster in the closet or just a very polite vanilla friend?
Of course being a very curious person, I’m curious. But I also respect his privacy to not click on his profile.  

Anyway, I don’t mind being out. Mainly, because he’s a friend. And seems to me that he didn’t go all crazy over it. He responded in a correct way and let me know. Thanks, I very much appreciate that. And now I know that it isn’t as scary as I thought it would be to be out to someone. I know now that I can respond calmly and not freak out. Well at least calmly on the inside. It’s only natural to freak out a little bit in your head.

Also, if you’re reading this * waves hi*

Sex and ADD

As some of you might know or might have read, I have ADD (Attention Deficit Disorder). This means for me that I get really easily distracted and some things can be more of a challenge. Crowds tricky are for me because at some point I will have hit my information overflow moment and I need some peace and quiet. Usually my body will tell me this by making me cry, thanks body, for that mechanism. This is because I can’t filter my input. Normally people can filter what they want to hear/see/smell but I can’t. This means when I’m in an area where there are all kinds of different sounds and impressions, I can only take so much before I need to get away from it. For instance when you’re talking to someone one on one, you generally focus on them. For me that takes a lot of effort to follow the conversation because at the same time I hear that car pass in the distance, see someone walking past, and so on. Why am I telling this you ask? Well it can be hard sometimes to understand something that ‘normal’ people can’t see. If you want a more detailed explanation, you can read this brilliant post

Anyway, I was going to talk about sex and ADD. Sex for me is a really tricky thing. I can enjoy it but I don’t come from it. Masturbating even in front of the bf is already really hard for me because it requires a lot of focus for me. If my mind goes and wander, no orgasm will happen. I’ve even had it with masturbating on my own that my mind just couldn’t focus enough to make it happen. So for me, orgasms mostly happen on my own, while masturbating, reading porn while laying in bed, face down grinding into my Doxy. And that’s okay. I’m very happy that I’m at least able to come on my own.

This also means that sometimes I get bored during sex. Or think about something completely non sexy. Like things that need to be done or shopping lists. And if course with that, my sexy mood goes down the drain. Not to mention it is hard to get in the mood in the first place. So yes it can get silly quickly. My excitement and my ability to stay in the mood, all comes from my brains. It is not my body that needs stimulating, it is my brain. This is why I find it important to be with someone that excites my brain. If you can do that, my body will follow. But still, only for so long.

For instance, I had sex once with a guy while Indiana Jones, Temple of Doom was on in the background. And I can say, all that screaming, is quite distracting.

Because of this, my interest for sex isn’t that strong. For me cuddling and petting is something way more interesting and more of a bonding experience. Plus, especially with new partners, it can be less frustrating. Don’t get me wrong, I do like sex. It just can be awkward and boring at times. I can be a steaming, sopping mess, but just one random thought and my mood concentration can be broken. I do so love exploring a new partner’s body and learning all about the noises and little things they do when having sex. But a lot of the time, I’m just thinking ‘Come already and get it over with, I’m bored and just want to cuddle.’

My affinity for kink is a good way for me to make things more interesting. I like a lot of different things and these make the possible options of things I could do with a partner very exciting.

My love for tease and denial is a great way to incorporate something sexual into kink. I love it, seeing how turned on I can get by turning on someone else and denying them. I just love the control, partially because I don’t have much control over my own body (especially the brain part) but also because I just love to be in control. Yes that might be my controlfreak part.

For me, kink gives me another way of expressing myself, without the extra pressure of anything sexual. It’s great to be able to play with someone, without the pressure of a sexual undertone. Of course, I don’t mind sexual play either but it needs to be clear from the start. Especially because it’s less interesting to me to have actual sex combined with kink.

As a little bonus you actually managed to read it all. Here’s part of the possible brain/vagina conversation that started of with me thinking ‘OMG, he’s too wide.’ during sex. After sex, I told him… and this came out. Needless to say, I couldn’t stop laughing.

Okay nervous system, send this to brain.

Dear brain, WHAT THE FUCK WAS THAT?

Sincerely Vagina.

Dear Vagina,

It seemed like a good idea at the time. And well, we have a lot of faith in you. You do good things and we know you can rise to a challenge.

We look forward to working with you again soon.

Dear Brain,

Seriously?!

There are going to be some changes around here. First of all we get full veto of anything that gets put anywhere NEAR us. And we are teaming up with ass now because it’s pretty worried about the new developments too.

Seriously, that was messed up

Dear Vagina,

That was a long time ago, now you have to let this go.

Also, SQUIRREL!

Sinful Sunday: Rope Bunny

This Sinful Sunday I’m a bunny! A rope bunny to be exact! Many thanks to the wonderful Appel who did the rigging.

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If you want to see more of Sinful Sunday, just click on the image below and enjoy!

Sinful Sunday

Sinful Sunday: In a snowfield

This Sinful Sunday I’m flashing again! And this time it’s in the snow! More snow! Yes it was very, very cold. A lot of fun though!

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If you want to see more of Sinful Sunday, just click on the image below and enjoy!

Sinful Sunday

Also this is an entry for my personal scavenge hunt (a sexy one that is)
You can find more about that on Dee her site

Sinful Sunday: The ski-lift

This Sinful Sunday I’m flashing again! And this time it’s in the snow! I’ve been away for a short ski trip and while there of course in the ski lift, I couldn’t resist a flashing opportunity in such a unique location. So of course the best choice was one of the cabins. There where people below us and people going up the mountain in the other cabins next to us so who knows, maybe one of them got lucky and saw me flashing!

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If you want to see more of Sinful Sunday, just click on the image below and enjoy!

Sinful Sunday

Also this is an entry for my personal scavenge hunt (a sexy one that is)
You can find more about that on Dee her site

His surprise

It started with just an idea in my head. Something to surprise him with for. Something so deep in the darkest, perverted corner of his mind, that he wouldn’t speak of it. I found out by accident browsing on our laptop. The browser history had remembered something that didn’t look familiar to me so I went and see what it was. It was a porn site. More specifically, it was a cuckold porn site. I was fascinated and slowly the idea grew on me to surprise my husband with another woman with a strap on.

Doing some browsing online, I realized that it would be a lot less hassle to not go and find someone through ‘date’ sites and to just hire a professional. I stumbled across londonescortgirls4u.com and had a browse there. I decided on a gorgeous looking woman called Eve. Nervously I contacted the agency and arranged a date for her to come to our house. The day before the date, I went to a sextoy shop to get some supplies. When I told the shop assistant of what I needed, she helped me pick out all the necessities. Including restraints to make sure he wouldn’t move. It may be his fantasy but I still want my fun for my own. I didn’t pick another woman for him, but for me. I have experimented with women in the past but to only think about what might happen now, made me quite excited.

I arranged Eve to arrive before my husband would, to make sure there will be enough time to tell her about the plan and to see if she appealed to my woman loving side. I put the toys out in the bedroom and made sure everything was ready when I heard the doorbell ring. I opened the door and invited her in. She looked just as beautiful as her pictures and I was glad that I chose her. I explained my plans to her and how I wanted to do this. I took her to the bedroom and showed her the set up I made. I had put a chair next to the bed where I would tie him up so he would be agonizing close and be able to see everything. Seeing I was a bit nervous, she came closer and kissed me. Her lips were soft and delicious to kiss. when I heard the car pull up on the driveway I broke off the kiss and grabbed the blindfold. Going downstairs my heart raced as my husband came in.

‘Hi honey, how was your day?’ I asked.

‘Alright, glad to be home though.’

‘Come here, I have a surprise for you. ‘

This caught his attention and he said;’what kind of surprise? ‘

‘Wouldn’t be a surprise if I said it now would it?’

I revealed the blindfold and immediately covered his eyes with it.

‘What are you up to with this?’

‘You’ll see,’ I said as I guided him upstairs. Coming to the bedroom Eve was laying on the bed in her lingerie and it made me lust after her even more.

‘Okay you can sit down on the chair now’ I said as he carefully sat down. I took his arms and in a quick movement, secured them in the restraints. Before he could protest I also secured a gag in his mouth. Lastly I made sure his legs where secured to the chair as well and sat on the bed in front of him.

‘Now you are ready for your surprise, I’m sure you will enjoy this,’ I said as I removed his blindfold. He blinked a few times and saw Eve behind me on the bed. Eve came up behind me and kissed my neck as she slid her hand between my legs. I saw his eyes grow bigger as he fully realized what was going on and he mumbled into his gag.

She massaged my clit through my clothing and I moaned as she bit down in my neck gently. I could see his penis getting rock hard in his pants and Eve had noticed as well.

“Seems he is enjoying himself just as much.”

“Not as much as I will enjoy myself,” I said and took of my clothes as Eve stepped into the strap-on harness. With the harness and cock secured to her, she pushed me down on the bed on my back. She started teasing my breasts with her lips as she pushed a finger in my dripping vagina. I moaned loudly and couldn’t wait for more.

To be continued..